deja vu... ain't it mr crossroads?

i've got lotsa things going on in my head... thinking about many, many things.

so much thinking that it almost hurts.

perhaps the biggest issue would be saying hello to the real world very, very soon. job hunting... settling down into the new role... eegad, i think i just blew another fuse just imaginging that whole tedious process...

and probably just as big a deal is the dreadful, gnawing question at the back of my head saying, "what if you don't get the jobs you want? what then hotshot?"

what scares me is that i still haven't completely made the mental transition out of school yet, highlighted by conversation with jo about some programme that she's working on. it's like knowing that i'm gonna have to make a turn at the next cross junction, but i'm still stuck on a non-turning lane.

all that combined with thoughts about the other aspects of my life and it just feels really, really heavy.

but drawing on the homily i heard in church just now, i think father did make a very valid point.

we don't need miracles.

we ARE the miracles... miracles in action in everything that we do.

let's try and get the engine running again...

i guess i stopped writing after the disappointment that was the champions league final in rome. i suppose the warning signs were there as a season that started with tremendous promise ended with a resounding whimper.

at least there is much to look forward to with post-cr7 life beckoning. it took a while for me to digest the signing of michael owen (even though i thought it could be a masterstroke) as i fumed at mental madrid stealing in on karim benzema and probably raised an eyebrow when mickey was handed the cherished number seven shirt. now, he has won me over with his pre-season form, and i eagerly await to see how he fares against sterner opposition in united colours. while it remains to be seen if antonio valencia can perform at the highest level, it will be very, very interesting to track gabriel obertan's progress at united. he's been slated from most quarters, so we'll have to wait and see how the sly old fox works his magic on our new french recruit.

football aside, life's been interesting... i think. i got myself a nice payout from the saf for a week of in camp thanks to ippt and marksmanship (and oh how sweet it felt to finally be able to prove to myself that i ain't that lousy a shooter... 38 hits out of 40 rounds fired fyi) as well as a nice sony mp3 player for company best detail (though that i guess that could be damning us with faint praise since there were humongous technical difficulties on the night... but heck. an mp3 player is an mp3 player!).

and i am damn bloody happy to report that i'm pretty much through with mdis! i just finished my last module last thursday and, last exam and graduation aside, i'm done with that bloody school. no more rubbish admin and stupid cock ups.

though of course, this pretty much means a big hello to that scary jungle called real life... hoo boy.

in not-so-good news, dad had a mild heart attack in june and had to get a stenting done in one of his arteries. he seems to be pretty much back to normal, though i guess this has been one of those wake-up call kind of reminders of just how fragile life can be. makes ya realise that your folks ain't exactly young or are getting any younger either. what is important now, i guess, is that he's ok and that we look after and love him as much as we can.

ben's gone off to aussie to study, so that means i'm down a drinking kaki for family events, but at least we found an awesome new place to eat and drink at along tanjong katong road. foo house serves some awesome food and an ever more wicked sangria that just made me grin like a cheshire cat. definitely going back there again... even if it's just for the sangria!

foc also just ended too, though i wasn't around for most of it thanks to school. technically, i really can lump myself with the csa alumni now that i'm done with school and i would be graduating too had i stayed in ntu and completed the course on time, but i think i might just stick around a little while longer. time will tell more i guess, so we'll see, we'll see.

church wise has also been really interesting. some wheels have started turning in the ministry and though they might not be optimal or fantastic, things are looking positive. hopefully i can persevere and stay the course to ensure things get off the ground and begin to fly.

and, i'll end this all off saying that even though it was mindless and a tad out-of-character at times with enough plotholes to sink the titanic twenty times over, revenge of the fallen was freaking awesome. i guess many critics probably entered expecting too much from a saturday morning cartoon franchise, but hey i'm a fan. i know more about the surrounding lore and back story than any of them critics and i say the action alone makes the show worth watching with an awesome character like jetfire as a bonus. maybe i'll write something more in-depth one of these days...

let's hope i don't get lazy assed again... greg, out.