deja vu... ain't it mr crossroads?

i've got lotsa things going on in my head... thinking about many, many things.

so much thinking that it almost hurts.

perhaps the biggest issue would be saying hello to the real world very, very soon. job hunting... settling down into the new role... eegad, i think i just blew another fuse just imaginging that whole tedious process...

and probably just as big a deal is the dreadful, gnawing question at the back of my head saying, "what if you don't get the jobs you want? what then hotshot?"

what scares me is that i still haven't completely made the mental transition out of school yet, highlighted by conversation with jo about some programme that she's working on. it's like knowing that i'm gonna have to make a turn at the next cross junction, but i'm still stuck on a non-turning lane.

all that combined with thoughts about the other aspects of my life and it just feels really, really heavy.

but drawing on the homily i heard in church just now, i think father did make a very valid point.

we don't need miracles.

we ARE the miracles... miracles in action in everything that we do.