a rare moment of peace...

i actually don't have anything to do in the office. my email's down, so i can't do a heckuva lot of other things. and on the other hand, no one's coming to me today with work. wonderful, wonderful afternoon...

i've been reflecting a lot on the events of the past 2 weeks or so. i've come to terms with yap's passing. it's just so sad and such a waste that he's gone over something that i find so small when it comes to matters of life and death - a girl. it also makes him the third person i know who's done themself for the same reason, a statistic that i hope and pray stays where it is till it's my turn to go. to me, if the girl's the right one, it is worth dying for her, not because of her. there's a huge difference there. go figure.

i'm gonna miss that fella. i chanced upon the blog of a friend of his, and it reminded me of he'd always come up to me in camp and go, "hey sergeant, ho seh bo?" he was one of the few who actually gave a damn that we were all in it together, crappy as ns could be.

my friend, i hope you've found your peace...

this one's for you. thanks to jo for the lovely song...

Radios In Heaven
Plain White T's

Your time has already come and I don't know why
The last thing that I had heard
you were doin' just fine
It seems like just yesterday
I was laughing with you
Playing games at Grandma's house
well you taught me well, didn't you?
I hope I'm just like you

Do they have radios in heaven?
I hope they do
'Cause they're playing my song on the radio
And I'm singing it to you

You left before I had a chance to say goodbye
But that's the way life usually is
it just passes you by
But you can't hold on to regrets and you can't look back
So I'll just be thankful for the times that I had with you
I hope I'm just like you

Do they have radios in heaven?
I hope they do
'Cause they're playing my song on the radio
And I'm singing it to you
If they don't have radios in heaven
here's what I'll do
I can bring my guitar when my time is up and I'll play it for you

Tell me can you hear me now
if not, then I can try to sing real loud
What's it like up on the other side of the clouds?
I hope I'm just like you
I hope I turn out to be as good as you