roller coaster

champions once more after a barren streak of 4 years. what a feeling. it's not the best feeling to have to attribute a title to arsenal holding chelsea to a draw, but wow. the title is back at old trafford! and we can sing for the champions once more.

but i suppose i hardly feel like a champion now. i feel better thanks to some friends' reassurances, but i feel disappointed at myself for not reacting to something that i should have reacted to. it may have been a unique situation, but i have experienced situations where i have not spoken out or acted when i really should have done so. i'm not a child anymore and i really should act like a real guy if the situation calls for it.

it might not be in my usual nature to be confrontational, but i know i can if i need to. hell, i know i can give as good as i take. but what i need to do is learn to stand up for myself and my friends and family when push comes to shove.

it's a crazy world out there. and i must grow up sometimes. i have to.